Very Discouraged

Well, I'm due for a long update, so bear with me. Thursday was my oldest daughter's preschool graduation. I had to bring bars, so I picked up donut holes (and ate 3). Then my daughter didn't wand her piece of bread with peanut butter, so I ate that. Then I had two bars with a glass of punch. Let me tell you, I was miserable that night!!! The uncomfortable fullness was very difficult to get through. But I haven't strayed since then. Friday I stalled, Saturday I was up 1.5 pounds,Sunday I was down one pound, and today I'm up half a pound. I didn't even cheat yesterday for Mother's Day! Needless to say, I'm really down in the dumps. My 4 year old made me a handprint flower pot in preschool for Mother's Day, but other than that? Nothing. No flowers, no clean house, no cards, nothing. Coupled with my gains, I'm really down in the dumps and close to giving up. I'm disappointed in myself for cheating, disappointed in the hcg for not showing me results after being SO CAREFUL for 3 days, and disappointed in my husband for showing no initiative for Mother's Day. And I want to mention that for Valentine's Day he asked me at 5 p.m. where I wanted to go for dinner. That left me an hour to find a babysitter, feed the girls, and get ready for dinner. Not possible. Then for my birthday I got a card from my daughters. Now I get nothing for Mother's Day but weight problems. Maybe it's the hormones from being on my TOM, but I'm feeling really fed up with it all....